Archive | November, 2012

Facing East, The Movie

"I'll tell you why your son died. He believed in your church more than he believed in himself!"

Utah has the country's highest suicide rate for males between the ages of 14 and 25. That grim statistic is given a name and a troubled family in Carol Lynn Pearson's impassioned play "Facing East."

We are all so close to this issue. We’ve all been tormented as we’ve watched good people struggle and families torn apart. We’ve all seen how religious families with gay children (or husbands, wives, fathers, or mothers) struggle along a trail that has few reliable markers. The unique thing about the story of Facing East, is that it provides those markers, without condemning or degrading. Though about religious people, it is not a religious film, and has found support from both the LDS as well as LGBT community. Facing East has the potential to be a bridge between two very different communities. Continue reading “Facing East, The Movie” »

Holiday Emotional First Aid Kit

It’s that time of year again. Pack up your patio furniture and pool toys and make room for turkeys and tinsel, cranberries and candy canes. For many of us this is a joyous time of year where we gather with loved ones around tables, trees, pianos and fireplaces to feast, unwrap, sing and celebrate. For others of us, gathering with loved ones is highly stressful and emotionally and mentally draining. For those in the second category, I thought I'd put together a little holiday gift – an Emotional First Aid Kit to help better navigate the season that sends far too many of us flying over the cuckoo's nest.

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Victim Takes Down Legend, Becomes Hero to Many

Victim Takes Down Legend, Becomes Hero


The story of a boy, being raised by a single mother barely above poverty, befriended by a Penn State Football legend and then destroyed by him. I learned about his story in a 20/20 episode aired 10/10/2012 by ABC News. While I was deeply affected by the horror this young man endured, and repulsed by the actions not only of this powerful man who inserted himself into this boys life, but also by the non actions of the people that surrounded him who were supposed to protect him and did not. This is a story all should know about and keep utmost in mind especially those entrusted with the care of children. There were signs, red flags that parents, school teachers and administrators should of seen and should of acted upon, but did not. In the end by not protecting the boy when all kinds of suspicious behavior occurred to warn them, they aided the molester in perpetrating his unspeakable acts upon the boy.

Victim 1, he was called at the trial, and at fourteen years of age, spoke up against Jerry Sandusky in the Penn State scandal, and now for the first time tells his story.Aaron Fisher was a eager and spirited eleven-year-old when legendary Penn State football coach Jerry Sandusky recruited him into his Second Mile children's charity. Offering support at a critical time in Aaron's life, Sandusky gave him gifts and attention, winning the boy's trust even as he isolated him from his family and peers. Before long, Sandusky's attention escalated into sexual assault. When Aaron summoned the courage to speak up, he found himself ostracized and harassed by the very people who were supposed to protect him. The investigation set off by his coming forward would drag on for three years—and would launch the biggest scandal in the history of sports.In Silent No More, Aaron Fisher recounts his harrowing quest to bring Sandusky's crimes to light—from the intense feelings of guilt that kept him from speaking up earlier and the fear he felt at accusing a man who was a pillar of the community and a hero to the largest alumni network in the world, to the infuriating delays in the arrest and conviction of his abuser. He catalogs the devastating personal toll the case took on him: the shattered relationships, panic attacks, and betrayal of trust that continued to haunt him even after the charges went public in the fall of 2011. But he also speaks of his mother's desperate efforts to get him out of harm's way, the invaluable help of psychologist Michael Gillum, and the vindication he felt at inspiring numerous other victims to step forward . . . and at knowing that, thanks to him, there would be no future victims of Jerry Sandusky.In the end, Aaron Fisher won his fight to expose the truth, achieving some measure of closure. Told in the honest and unforgettable voices of Aaron; his mother, Dawn; and his psychologist, Mike, this inspiring book completes Aaron's transformation from a nameless casualty into a resounding voice for change.

Abuse Defined


For those of us raised in Mormon homes, many of us women maybe even some men believed that unless there was severe physical abuse or infidelity, we were in the wrong to ever seek a separation or divorce. Temple marriage vows are made for “Time & Eternity” and “temple divorces” were given only in rare occasions by General Authorities of the Church when these extreme circumstances were proved, while a “temporal or legal divorce” is common and easy to obtain”. Many of us that have long been divorced 20 30 years or more are still married or “sealed” in the eyes and records of the Church. We have also been led to believe we have failed if we have divorced.

This wheel clearly indicates that there are all types of destructive abuse far beyond what was taught us growing up in the Church, and that if you or anyone you know is experiencing them, then there is great cause for concern, therapy, and change.

If conditions cannot be improved, and lasting changes made, then often many relationships should be ended rather than endured.

It takes great courage for anyone to face the loss of an important relationship, sometimes even more courage than tolerating bad treatment. Only a woman or man can know for themselves if the degree that they experience is beyond correction and does not contribute to a satisfying relationship and healthy home life. We hope that those struggling with such abuse will not feel trapped or obligated by religious beliefs or advice of leaders to stay in any unhealthy relationship that involves the types of abuses mentioned in this diagram.

LDSApology Broadening its Focus

Originally founded in 2009 to support the LGBT community, is broadening its focus to include other forms of abuse that exist within the Mormon Church – primarily sexual abuse. Sexual abuse in the LDS Church is more often than not covered up, with primary concern being about protecting the perpetrators and the Church's image, resulting in the continued abuse of the victims and their families.

For years, members of our committee have watched the drama surrounding the cover ups of sexual abuse in the Catholic Church and wondered when the Mormon Church would be held accountable for similar practices. When news hit of the covered up molestations in Penn State's College Football Program, and President Obama issued the following statement, we decided that the time was now.

“Well, obviously the whole situation is heartbreaking. We think first and foremost of the victims of the alleged crimes. But I think it is a good time for us to do some soul-searching – every institution, not just Penn State – about what our priorities are and making sure we understand that our first priority is protecting our kids.  We all have a responsibility. We can't leave it to a system. We can't leave it to somebody else.”   (President Obama)

Our support committee and community of survivors at have taken seriously President Obama’s call to action and have made the decision to no longer “stand quietly on the sidelines.” Instead we have expanded our mission this week to now include the offering of support to, and the documentation of the stories and experiences of, LDS church members, and others, who have experienced abuse – not only sexual, but abuse in all its forms, from members and leaders of the Mormon Church.

On November 12, 2012 actress, writer, producer Emily Pearson, accepted the position of Communications director and spokesperson for As a former Mormon, an advocate for support and healing from abuse – in all its forms, and a survivor of childhood sexual abuse in the LDS community herself, we feel Emily will have a huge impact as our official spokesperson in reaching out to those we most wish to help.

In regards to her decision to join, Pearson, whose own story of abuse and survival is written about in her new book Dancing with Crazy stated, "Every time a child is abused, it is a devastating tragedy. And every time that abuse is ignored or covered up, it is an inexcusable crime – one that, as a society, we must start holding one another accountable for."

For many years members of our committee have been deeply affected by stories in the media about child abuse being covered up in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. We agree with Bill Mahar who said on Good Morning America, regarding the recent events at Penn State, that any male dominant organization "…where there are no women; Football, the Church, the Middle East, Fraternities; it always goes bad. Women provide a moderating influence. ”

In the Mormon Church, all active and "worthy" men and boys over the age of 12 are ordained to the "Priesthood" which is the power to administer the spiritual and organizational functions of the church. According to Mormon doctrine, this Priesthood comes directly from God and entitles men to preside over women and children. Many of the women and children in the Mormon community feel they have no voice or power in this solid patriarchal society. When a woman or child experiences abuse, it can be very difficult for them to find someone to confide in and to trust in the all-male Mormon heretical leadership structure.

In this specific all male leadership, women have historically had no voice in making choices, changes or even in affecting policy and decision making. Organizations of this type have a high incidence of abuse and cover ups that often span decades – as we have watched unfold over the last few years in the Catholic Church.   It is the goal of LDS Apology to dedicate ourselves to shedding light, giving support, bringing love and healing, and to providing a safe place for all those that have experienced abuse as well as our continued efforts to serve the LGBT community. is one of the first organizations to not only officially and actively reach out and serve those that have suffered, or are currently suffering, from mental, emotional, verbal, ecclesiastical, physical and sexual and abuse from Mormon members and leaders; but to call for an end to the perpetration and cover ups of these abuses.

Reporting Child Abuse

 ”Every adult in this story failed the child because they didn’t go to police. Rather, they went to their church.”—Marci Hamilton

“As a culture, we are slow to react to evidence of child sex abuse. We worry about tarring the reputation of adults far more than we do about early intervention when a child is in trouble. It takes a whole culture for children to be sexually and physically abused — adults to do it and others to take no action when they suspect what is happening.”—Marci Hamilton

National Hotline Crisis Counselors Available 24/7 The Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453) See their great website at

Family Acceptance Project LDS Brochure   The Family Acceptance Project™ is the only community research, intervention, education and policy initiative that works to decrease major health and related risks for lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) youth, such as suicide, substance abuse, HIV and homelessness – in the context of their families. We use a research-based, culturally grounded approach to help ethnically, socially and religiously diverse families decrease rejection and increase support for their LGBT children.

Legal links and Reading:

Martha Beck’s Leaving the Saints discusses her early childhood Mormon ritualistic sexual abuse and Richard Bushman’s (active LDS Church Patriarch) biography of Joseph Smith discusses his thirty plus multiple wives and teenage brides:

Holiday Emotional First Aid Kit

Holiday Emotional First Aid Kit

It’s that time of year again. Pack up your patio furniture and pool toys and make room for turkeys and [...]

Abuse Defined

Abuse Defined

  For those of us raised in Mormon homes, many of us women maybe even some men believed that unless [...]

LDSApology Broadening its Focus

Originally founded in 2009 to support the LGBT community, is broadening its focus to include other forms of abuse that [...]

Reporting Child Abuse

 ”Every adult in this story failed the child because they didn’t go to police. Rather, they went to their church.”—Marci Hamilton “As [...]